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I feel rejected again. Men don't usually reject sex, not from me, so weird. And he was hard yesterday. Let's his mind rule. Dotan is grieving her not interested at the moment, I'm grieving losing my best friend. You didn't even leave Tomer a message when I asked. Just attacked me and my parenting and the violence in our house.

No empathy whatsoever, no love, no care, lots of hate. And Istvan and Carlito aren't what I need, but once in a while cuddling with them is ok. Dotan I have a financial incentive, an incentive of another child, and Tomer. But living with someone who hates me or doesn't want to live with me is hard. I miss having someone to cry to, to hug and support me, like you did, like you were.

Even before sleeping together. David was just someone who cuddled. No real support, but better than Carlito or Istvan, which are more fake. So I know it's time I succeeded being on my own. I'll do it step by step Hopefully find friends along the way Maybe also love Maybe sex Maybe enjoy breathing alone I don't know what will be But just breathe through another day Make the best of another day Another day of healing myself Taking bettr care of my body soul house son and things will improve Step by step There's lots of hope.

She's so lucky to have gotten a piece of you. I'm so jealous of that. I wish I could get some. But when we talked I cried for weeks after, you're so full of hatred towards me. So I'm happy for you that she wanted to talk, that you feel wanted and maybe loved. I wish I could have been there, but maybe it's best not I want someone who loves himself, not just the love I give. Because then he's settling When someone loves themselves they choose someone to love, not take just any cuddle or attention.

I wish you still lived with us. I miss you so much. But I'm accepting reality, and good is coming out of you not in my life. I'm not in depression, not like in the past, most of the time. I'm enjoying things, not like the four years before you. And I will bring back balance and peace to my house and life. And clean all the mental and physical junk I can. It's ok if I never get back to you or meet anyone like you. You were always a free bird, and it was really hard.

I'll keep learning, keep growing, still have lots of work there, I'll do it Lovingly, step by step. I'll find a schedule that works for me and my family. Even if d leaves me and the house I'll be fine. Even I'll bring paid help. Even if I never have another child. Even if my relationship with my parents Never improves. I'll do what I can to teach Tomer love and nvc, and he'll still have traumas and difficulties, and will have his own work to do.

It's ok if I don't fit in with the Western world, Don't have a job, a regular one, or a boyfriend. I'll breathe through each moment as it comes, step by step, instead of looking at the whole picture and feeling depressed.

Because the whole picture is also partial Like when adding world hungrer, Holocaust, depression, it's part of something bigger I don't know or understand. Just step by step, breathe through it. I don't feel like you're mine, or my love anymore.

This blog started as our relationship blog, but that's over. Also any hope I had that you'll come back to me. Even hope of staying friends is almost over. From now on I hope to only post in my blog. Good bye my love.

Thank you for everything you were for me For Everything you taught me I love you I'm sorry Please forgive me Thank you. I relate more to her sadness. I miss your energies. I'll continue healing on my own. I hate alone, but I'll go through it. I miss having a loving boyfriend I'm in love with and he's with me. I miss having a partner. When will it happen again?

I miss making love. I miss having someone who wants me and wants to come home to me, to cuddle me. I miss it all. David helped some, I hope to have Dotan cuddle more. Hard to let go Many memories run through my head, like the ending of la la Land, that makes it even harder and sadder for me.

D is very disconnected from me, I barely see him, and no contact with David, so I'm desperate for cuddles, for warm embraces, for some soothing and comforting. Asking lots from t But I'm ok, considering. I hope the thyroid energy and rhiodola will help, and then I can start exercising, eating less sweet, and things will look different Oh Ophiri, my love, how you succeeded ruining everything Erasing us, me, everything I still hold all our love and amazing friends and memories.

It's all painted black or even gone from your head. I tried, I really did. Maybe in a different lifetime I took a different path and things look different But in this one I have this, and I am breathing through it. Maybe one day I'll see why it was so worth it I see some, like me treating myself, divvya, the bpd, learning to be independent, and maybe from there I'll find a good life, happiness that is more than sadness and loneliness. A healthier, more balanced and stable relationship.

But god, I loved being with you. I loved the sex, the way you hugged and embraced me. You were so tall, you covered me all over, tangled with me. I needed that so much. Your rocking me, soothing me, kissing my womb when it hurt, my neck, hugging from behind, hugging my neck from behind, dominating me. Maybe when I'm stronger and more independent I won't need that kind of love and touch? So it's really over, huh? No more little boy inside you that wants my love, you killed him.

And the adult you didn't want me. Only at one short point. I hope I will find someone that wants me wholeheartedly. All of him wants all of me. Not even as friends. You said I'm manipuative and psychopatic. It hurts You used to say it Lovingly. Our percentage is less than 10 now. I'm ok with it, but it saddens me. That really really saddens me too. I guess it's too much for you hearing from me. Makes me hate your inbaly. Or more like I'm so jealous. But it's just another thing to learn from, to breathe through.

I don't regret giving us a chance, taking what you gave, the wonderful period we had together. You hate me now, that's your way to deal, to disconnect. I knew it might happen, knowing how you did with your brother, eirad, chen. I thought that if I gave my love through it things would be different.

It's ok if not. I'll always love you. Like I will love them all, including yoh. And I was good: Getting you out of my system. And fuck you for being mean when I keep on being nice. Passing near tiv taam on pinkas makes me cry.

How many more places? I'm getting it out of my system. Grateful for what we had, what you gave me, for all the healing, for the love and happiness. For the pain, I can breathe through it nowadays. And it's there for a reason. Today I had huge fights with Dotan. But I was ok without you. Didn't cry for you this time. I'm getting stronger, more independent. Healing through it all. I hurt for Tomer, but I'm really trying. And I'll keep trying, growing, learning.

I love what we were, what you were for me, all the love you gave me. How have you been? How are you doing? I haven't read your journal in several days already. I hope to never read it again. This is me, succeeding in letting go more and more You don't want to talk or share, that's yours. And it might hurt too much anyway With the cute receptionist, or the gorgeous girls there, and not missing me loving me and rarely mentioning me, only in a negative way.

We went to Divya together, it was amazing. I hope it will make deep lasting changes. D's primal workshop was amazing. I wish you would go to one, or to family constellation, or something. Whatever works for you.. I wonder if you'll ever contact me again, if you'll say you miss me, lol me.

I wonder how it will feel It's been almost two weeks since I wrote you T sent some stuff last week, you replied And you've been gone almost two months. It's been quite a journey, for me and probably you too. You're slipping through my fingers. Maybe because it's a Saturday and I'm alone with t, maybe because I miss someone cuddling me at night, it's been a week and a half, maybe because you feel farther than ever, maybe because I miss you so much, your love, kisses, the things you made me and my body feel.

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The Allied missions that entered Germany concluded that the extensive work had been conducted on the swept wing in the transonic regime appeared to suggest that the straightwing approach adopted for the M52 was a mistake, and:. When the German data became available, there was concern in the Ministry [of Supply], not least in the Department of Scientific Research and the Directorate of Technical Development.

O rders were given to cancel immediately any high-speed projects which did not incorporate sweepback. An important contribution was made by the aerodynamicists Martin Winter and Hans Multhopp who, in , designed an experimental 55 degree swept-wing transonic research aircraft to be powered by the Rolls-Royce AJ.

German wartime developments in themselves were the major post-war stimulus to Britain, America and the Soviet Union to adopt rockets as major propulsive devices. The DCOS Scheme led to the recruitment, inter alia, of key German wartime specialists with state-of-the-art knowledge and previous experience that was useful in itself, and many of them had wide expertise on the use of hydrogen peroxide as an oxidizer. At the inception of the DCOS Scheme, security concerns raised by the Home Office and the Security Services led to the decision that German specialists would be employed in government defence research establishments and have only limited contact with industry.

The rationale here was that:. There would be considerable risk in permitting these scientists to have access to firms engaged on highly secret defence contracts … Leakage of information on the long-term trend of secret weapons would indeed be serious. In practical terms, because the Germans were employed on research work rather than applied development linked to projects in industry, aircraft firms were denied first-hand information on practical aspects of design and manufacture.

For example, after , Winter and Multhopp were permitted to work on research aircraft but security concerns precluded their extensive experience being applied on the fighter derivative. There were also other barriers to integration. In some instances they stemmed from the political records of individual German scientists.

First, complaints by some of the Germans about their terms and conditions of employment led to various acrimonious disputes with the research establishments. This shift in attitudes reflected the high value placed by senior MoS officials on the work of the German experts and their evident desire to secure long-term employment contracts for them.

On the one hand, in September , the Treasury pointed out that the Aliens Acts that forbade government employment of aliens, and which had been temporarily overruled when the DCOS scientists had been recruited, would return into force in December The German scientists at RAE because of their specialised knowledge and experience and the time they had been employed, had now become an essential part of the scientific complement, and their loss would be detrimental to the work being carried out.

The original conception of the DCOS scheme, which had in mind the eventual return of aliens to their own country after having given the information which was required of them, had now changed.

By January ,78 this high-level pressure led to the removal of legal impediments, and those German specialists required by the government defence research establishments were finally offered unestablished Civil Service appointments on similar terms and conditions to British staff. After , of the original 87 DCOS recruits some 27 acquired British nationality and many went on to make longer-term contributions to British aeronautics and rocket development.

Between and , his work included the design of a missile targeting computer and missile vibration research. Between and his retirement in , Entres was responsible for the development of UK space policy and overall planning of the British space technology programme — a task that included the coordination of the efforts of industry and government establishments.

Similarly, MoS personnel records indicate that experts recruited by the RAE Rocket Propulsion Department, Westcott, including Friederich Jessen and Jurgen Diederichsen, made valuable theoretical and practical contributions to the development of liquid and solid rocket fuels and motors from the lates until their retirement in the mids. Instead, a limited and largely polemical literature on the British experience has generated a popular orthodoxy that Britain failed to exploit a technological opportunity that was harnessed so effectively by the Americans.

Reports of their work into inter-continental guided missiles, today greatly developed and realised in a practical form in the USSR and the US, were dismissed as a Wellsian fantasy or a Jules Verne dream by our people at home.

This assertion is based on comparative recruitment figures: Correspondingly, this critique implies a particular counter-factual history: This popular account raises two issues. The first is why German science more generally, and the DCOS Scheme in particular, figure so little in the historiography of post-war British defence science and technology.

On the other hand, a relatively small proportion of British development projects finally proceeded to production. Between and , the British aircraft industry undertook manned projects that were overtly intended for manufacture, of which just 10 aircraft types were eventually produced in quantities of or more. Consequently, as Edgerton points out, these factors conspired to create a situation where:. Correspondingly, the marginalization of German scientists in the historiography of British post-war aeronautics has occurred because many of the DCOS recruits were employed on development lines that ultimately failed to proceed to production for reasons that had little to do with the quality or activities of the German specialists themselves.

This implies the need for more research into the role German scientists played across the range of post-war weapon-related development, if only to augment the history of why Britain undertook the projects it did and further our understanding of how and why those projects ultimately performed the way they did.

For example, throughout the lates, Britain encountered chronic shortages in qualified scientists and engineers QSEs in precisely those fields where German expertise seemed to have the most to offer.

The QSE shortfalls were most acute in the aeronautical and guided weapons sectors with the implication that:. Certain vital Radar equipment, Guided Weapons and AA [anti-aircraft] equipments are among the most seriously affected. Lack of suitable staff in the aeronautical field will affect the efficiency of new aircraft and will lead to delays in reaching higher speeds.

More might also have been achieved had Britain followed the US armed services in preserving wartime teams or encouraging greater contact between German experts and aircraft manufacturers. In the British case, the majority of the DCOS recruits had left by , many complaining of enforced isolation. Correspondingly, however, there is evidence that the popular orthodoxy underrates the performance of British policies in three respects.

First, the application of hindsight has tended to downplay the constraints on German recruitment that arose from the social and political milieu in which British policy was formulated.

In this light, British policy can be interpreted as a logical response to the prevailing social and political conditions of the time. Second, it is a gross oversimplification to say, as the orthodoxy implies, that Britain was somehow denied access by the Americans to the elite scientists it required. Between December and July , under the inter-governmental agreements implemented by the Combined Chiefs of Staff in Washington, the UK and the US exchanged 35 lists of German scientists required for defence work.

Consequently, when manpower requirements are subjected to closer scrutiny they reveal that Britain either employed or screened all but 21 of the German scientists and technicians listed as required by the defence research establishments. In cases where Britain and the USA required the same individual, the records show that allocations were made i n accordance with the equity principle agreed by the Combined Chiefs of Staff, so Britain does not appear to have been disadvantaged where competing claims for particular German experts emerged.

In addition to long-term exploitation of German experts through the DCOS Scheme, British policy included two other equally important objectives: British policies also need to be evaluated in terms of the security benefits provided through post-war Anglo-US cooperation on information from German scientists.

For example, Britain gave information derived in the early s on German wartime advances on radar absorbent material to the USA that proved to be an important precursor to the development of Stealth technology. Consequently, collaboration on the German science question, coupled with broader scientific, technical and intelligence information exchange, seems to have assisted British Cold War security interests by enhancing transatlantic defence and intelligence links.

The lesson of the research facilities discovered in Germany at the end of the war and their indications of the patterns of future technical development, far in advance of our own conception at the time, went largely unheeded by government and industry alike.

Moreover, it points to the need for more research into the impact of British policies towards German scientists, above and beyond the cohort recruited for work in the UK, on wider Cold War national security interests. An Appraisement and Strategy for Success London: See, for example, Leslie E.

John Wiley p. Scarborough House pp. Derek Wood, Project Cancelled: Tri-Service Press , p. The Supply of Military Aircraft, Cmd.

Tom Bower, The Paperclip Conspiracy: Michael Joseph p. Notable exceptions are the excellent coverage of scientific intelligence in Julian Lewis, Changing Direction London: Sherwood Press , and also in R.

Jones, Reflection on Intelligence London: European University Institute Harwood , p. Wood, Project Cancelled note 4 p. Bower, The Paperclip Conspiracy note 6 p. Preface to Matthias Judt and Burghard Ciesla eds. It's ok if I never get back to you or meet anyone like you.

You were always a free bird, and it was really hard. I'll keep learning, keep growing, still have lots of work there, I'll do it Lovingly, step by step. I'll find a schedule that works for me and my family. Even if d leaves me and the house I'll be fine. Even I'll bring paid help. Even if I never have another child.

Even if my relationship with my parents Never improves. I'll do what I can to teach Tomer love and nvc, and he'll still have traumas and difficulties, and will have his own work to do. It's ok if I don't fit in with the Western world, Don't have a job, a regular one, or a boyfriend. I'll breathe through each moment as it comes, step by step, instead of looking at the whole picture and feeling depressed. Because the whole picture is also partial Like when adding world hungrer, Holocaust, depression, it's part of something bigger I don't know or understand.

Just step by step, breathe through it. I don't feel like you're mine, or my love anymore. This blog started as our relationship blog, but that's over. Also any hope I had that you'll come back to me. Even hope of staying friends is almost over. From now on I hope to only post in my blog. Good bye my love. Thank you for everything you were for me For Everything you taught me I love you I'm sorry Please forgive me Thank you.

I relate more to her sadness. I miss your energies. I'll continue healing on my own. I hate alone, but I'll go through it. I miss having a loving boyfriend I'm in love with and he's with me. I miss having a partner. When will it happen again? I miss making love. I miss having someone who wants me and wants to come home to me, to cuddle me. I miss it all. David helped some, I hope to have Dotan cuddle more.

Hard to let go Many memories run through my head, like the ending of la la Land, that makes it even harder and sadder for me. D is very disconnected from me, I barely see him, and no contact with David, so I'm desperate for cuddles, for warm embraces, for some soothing and comforting. Asking lots from t But I'm ok, considering. I hope the thyroid energy and rhiodola will help, and then I can start exercising, eating less sweet, and things will look different Oh Ophiri, my love, how you succeeded ruining everything Erasing us, me, everything I still hold all our love and amazing friends and memories.

It's all painted black or even gone from your head. I tried, I really did. Maybe in a different lifetime I took a different path and things look different But in this one I have this, and I am breathing through it. Maybe one day I'll see why it was so worth it I see some, like me treating myself, divvya, the bpd, learning to be independent, and maybe from there I'll find a good life, happiness that is more than sadness and loneliness.

A healthier, more balanced and stable relationship. But god, I loved being with you. I loved the sex, the way you hugged and embraced me. You were so tall, you covered me all over, tangled with me. I needed that so much. Your rocking me, soothing me, kissing my womb when it hurt, my neck, hugging from behind, hugging my neck from behind, dominating me.

Maybe when I'm stronger and more independent I won't need that kind of love and touch? So it's really over, huh? No more little boy inside you that wants my love, you killed him. And the adult you didn't want me. Only at one short point. I hope I will find someone that wants me wholeheartedly.

All of him wants all of me. Not even as friends. You said I'm manipuative and psychopatic. It hurts You used to say it Lovingly. Our percentage is less than 10 now. I'm ok with it, but it saddens me. That really really saddens me too. I guess it's too much for you hearing from me. Makes me hate your inbaly. Or more like I'm so jealous. But it's just another thing to learn from, to breathe through. I don't regret giving us a chance, taking what you gave, the wonderful period we had together.

You hate me now, that's your way to deal, to disconnect. I knew it might happen, knowing how you did with your brother, eirad, chen.

I thought that if I gave my love through it things would be different. It's ok if not. I'll always love you. Like I will love them all, including yoh. And I was good: Getting you out of my system. And fuck you for being mean when I keep on being nice. Passing near tiv taam on pinkas makes me cry. How many more places? I'm getting it out of my system. Grateful for what we had, what you gave me, for all the healing, for the love and happiness.

For the pain, I can breathe through it nowadays. And it's there for a reason. Today I had huge fights with Dotan. But I was ok without you. Didn't cry for you this time. I'm getting stronger, more independent. Healing through it all. I hurt for Tomer, but I'm really trying. And I'll keep trying, growing, learning. I love what we were, what you were for me, all the love you gave me. How have you been? How are you doing? I haven't read your journal in several days already.

I hope to never read it again. This is me, succeeding in letting go more and more You don't want to talk or share, that's yours. And it might hurt too much anyway With the cute receptionist, or the gorgeous girls there, and not missing me loving me and rarely mentioning me, only in a negative way. We went to Divya together, it was amazing. I hope it will make deep lasting changes. D's primal workshop was amazing. I wish you would go to one, or to family constellation, or something.

Whatever works for you.. I wonder if you'll ever contact me again, if you'll say you miss me, lol me. I wonder how it will feel It's been almost two weeks since I wrote you T sent some stuff last week, you replied And you've been gone almost two months. It's been quite a journey, for me and probably you too.

You're slipping through my fingers. Maybe because it's a Saturday and I'm alone with t, maybe because I miss someone cuddling me at night, it's been a week and a half, maybe because you feel farther than ever, maybe because I miss you so much, your love, kisses, the things you made me and my body feel.

I missed you at home, playing with Tomer and me, in kikar rabin, reading besides me. I miss your enthusiasm with Tomer. I feel exhausted and drained. Nothing is as fun without someone who loves me near me, falling asleep cuddled. I really need and miss that. That thought makes me so sad.

I rest a lot, Tomer is mostly alone.. But I'm doing what I can I console myself telling me that my parents Never really played with me, that I'm giving him my love, patience, and full attention. And trying to stay calm sane and happy at the same time..

Not necessarily you anymore. I'm letting go more and more, falling out of love. Which is good, Because you don't want me, but I am grieving it as well. I loved being in love with you, I loved the hope I had. Posted by Rakefet at 1: Posted by Rakefet at Posted by Rakefet at 9: Posted by Rakefet at 8: Posted by Rakefet at 7: Sometimes its just too hard.

Tuesday, November 28, I wonder. Posted by Rakefet at 2: Posted by Rakefet at 6: Posted by Rakefet at 4: Posted by Rakefet at 3: Sunday, November 19, longing. Friday, November 17, I hope I'm done with this blog. Listening more to mitski now. You don't want any connection with me.

Wednesday, November 15, scrambled brain. Poetry slam at the polly. I'm finding peace without you. Posted by Rakefet at 5:

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